CHAPTER 23

Chapter 23

So nouf went to her class ..

I was thinking about what nouf told me all day ..

At the end of the day rj3t el bait , badalt , 9alait , kalait , then I checked my phone…

Ahmed kan m7achini so I replied..

Ahmed ; ahlain

Me ; hello

Ahmed : shloonch ?

Me : im okay , hows yu ?

Ahmed ; im great , kl ma aklmch I feel better

Me :hhhhh

(I was so not in the mood of talking to anyone , bs I have to talk to ahmed )

Ahmed : shfeech ?

Me: mafini shai

Ahmed ; la feech shai

Me : mt’9ayga shwai

Ahmed : min shnw ?

Me : uhh

(ahmed called me )

Ahmed ; aloo

Me : halla

Ahmed : shfeech ?

Me : mt’9ayga min rfejti

Ahmed ; laish ? shsawat ?

Me : el youm glt 7g rfejati 3n me and you , w7dh mnhm 39bt o she called me stupid

Ahmed : awww 7abebty malah da3i tz3leen , o mahma kan hathe rfejtch , ehya b3d ymkn makant t89d , bs kant m39ba o lain el wa7d y39b may3rf shga3d ygool a9ln , la t76een b5a6rch wla shai o la tt’9aygain ana ma7b achoofch chthi , o ana mt2kd ena ehya btt9l o bt3t’thr lch b3d

Me : ahmed wait rfejte et9lt

(it was nouf)

Me : la t9kh 5lk 3la el 56

Ahmed ; okay

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Nouf : halla

Me : hello

Nouf : enti z3lti mni

Me ; shwai

Nouf ; aww min 9jch entail , t76en b5a6rch 3alai , enti t3rfeen ena ana abi m9l7tch la akthr , o abech tntbhain o tfkreen 3dl gabl matsween ay shai , bs 5ala9 enti shklch fakartai o 5athaite 8rarch ele 3balch ente ohwa el 97 , o im happy for you o allah ywafgch o 7asbai 3dl

Me : inshallah , it means a lot to me ena u called walla

Nouf : ya 7ayati maswait shai , ana ‘3l6t b7gch l2na

Me: okay noufo ana lazm aroo7 a7een baklmch b3dain

Nouf : okay , ee sm3ai tgdreen tyeen baitna el yoom

Me : will try , o ba5brch b3dain fe  el bbm , ttyl darling

Nouf : okay ttyl

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Banadth min nouf o I talked to ahmed again ,

Me : aloo

Ahmed : halla

Me : t3rf min et9l lee

Ahmed : min ?

Me : rfejti nouf , ele knt z3lana mmha

Ahmed : 9j walla

Me ; ee

Ahmed : chftaai glt lch ena btt9l

Me : ymkn aroo7 baithum b3dain

Ahmed : etha r7ti baithum ma bt7achini L

Me : ma3alaih etha radait ba7acheek

Ahmed : okay

Me : ana baroo7 as2l omi a7een , ill talk to you later

Ahmed : okay sugar , ttyl

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3gb r7t 7g my mom o s2ltha , she told me that its okay to go, bs lazm arj3 el bait by 9

I agreed , I talked to nouf o glt lha that Im coming …..

R7t as2l o5oi na9er 3shan ywadini hnak..

Dashait 3alaih el 7jrah

He was on the phone ..

Na9er : okay 7abebte aklmch b3dain

(WHAT?!)

Me: na9er tgdr twadini bait nouf el sa3a 5

Na9er : mra thanya etha btdsheen el 7jra , 6gi el bab

Me : inshallah

Na9er : el sa3a 5 ?

Me ; ee

Na9er : okay bawadeech

6l3t min 7jrt na9er o I was wondering who he was talking to , I have to know , have to …

I was thinking of a plan

9arat el sa3a 5 r7t abadl o I thought that I can discuss this with nouf , maybe bt36ene 56h..

Na9er : yalla mariam bnroo7

Me ; okaaay

W9lt bait nouf , nzlt min el sayara

Twnii badsh , 6l3 mohammed o5oha

Klsh mb wgth …

Mohammed : ahlain , halla walla , tawa manwr el bait

Me : halla , shloonk mohammed ?

Mohammed : ana tamam , dam chftch a7een , enti shloonch ?

Me : ana b5air el 7mdallah

Mohammed : sh5bar el drasa?

Me : walla el drasa tamam

Mohammed : btt5arjai hal snah ha (he winked)

(I really don’t know what did that wink mean )

Me : hhhh ee

Mohammed : allah ywfgch

Me : thank you

Nouf 6l3t and she saw me standing with mohammed , she called me

Nouf : mariaam mariaam

Me :yalla I have to go , bye

Ahmed : ma3a el salama

R7t 7g nouf

I hugged her

-END OF CHAPTER 23-

CHAPTER 22

Chapter 22

Wth is wrong with mariam shfeeha thii , ana maswait shai a7een 3shan t7achini chthii …….

I noticed that I got a message on bbm .

Awww it was ahmed!

Ahmed : halla

Me : ahlain

Ahmed : min ?

Me : ana mariam, 97 glt lk bafakr bl mw’9oo3 , ana fakart o 8rrt ene a’9eefk

Ahmed : that was fast , nwrtee el lista walla

Me : mnwra bnoork

Ahmed : t3rfeen shkthr estanast

Me : really

Ahmed; ee tw83t mat’9efene

Me : so did I

Ahmed : 3ndee so2al

Me : shnw ?

Ahmed : ente laish kl ma tyeen lee tyeen wyaa a7md your cousin ?

Me : umm , la2ana may9eer ayii bro7i

Ahmed : t3ale wyaa rfeejatch aw ay a7d thani , bs mabi achoof a7md

Me : laish y3ni ?

Ahmed : a7s’h s5eef

Me : la shd3wa , tra mar’9a 3alaih

Ahmed : sorry , bs y3ni hai my opinion

Me : its okay its your opinion o I cant change anything about it , bs tara If u get to know him more u will love him he has a really great personality , o a9ln hes the one who helped me to talk to u J

Ahmed : really ?

Me : yeah

After 3 hours of talking to ahmed on bbm , mama galat lee that its time to go home , rj3t el bait o I was talking to ahmed non stoply, until ma9art 4 am…..

Ahmed : marioom 9arat 4 ro7ee rgdaai

Me :  ohh a7md mabi argd

Ahmed : la 3shani ro7e rgdai , awl shai ro7e 9alai 3gb ro7e rgdai , 3shan ana ba3ad aroo7 a9li

Me : okay , good night

Ahmed : good night cupcake , sweet dreams

Me :  night

Ahmed :  <3

I prayed 3gb tamait afkr , ahmed is a really nice , kind , caring guy …

I kept on thinking about ahmed , until I fell asleep

I woke up at 1 I prayed 3gb I checked my phone I was hoping to get a text from ahmed , I changed my display picture then I got a text …

Ahmed  : good morning , a7la morning 7g a7la bnya fe el dnya

Me : awww good morning

Ahmed : how r u ? , I miss talking to u

Me : im great , how r u ?

Ahmed : im great since I talked to u

Ahmed and I kept on talking to each other  all day ..

I didn’t get bored of talking to him , time flies by soo fast ,,,

The next thing I noticed was its  9 pm -.-

Omg I didn’t study at all maswait el schedule I did nothing , I told ahmed that ill talk to him tomorrow when I come back from school , and he totally respected that .

I was awake until 11 sawait my homework , studied , I was soo tired , I didn’t even check my phone 3gb I went to sleep …

The next day I woke up took a shower , changed , and my brother took me to school …

All that I can think about was ahmed , I decided to tell sarah and nouf about him now

Sarah was happy for me ,, bs nouf got mad…

Nouf : enti min 9jch ?, enti maynona ? wain 3glch

Me : ohoo nouf malii 5lgg hwash walla

Nouf : bs ele sawaiteeh , y3nii shagool lch sawaiteeh bdoon tfkeer

Me : la fakart o fakart wayed b3d

Nouf: bs 8ararch ‘3bi el 9ara7a enti ‘3byyaaa

Me : thank you

And I walked away , I really don’t want to hear stuff like that I know that ehya tabi m9l7ti bs it hurts me….

Sarah l7gtnii

Sarah : mariam , mariam

Me : n3m ..

Sarah : z3ltee ?

Me : la maz3lt

Sarah: 3yartch 3ad , enti t3rfeen ena ehya tbi m9l7tch 9a7

Me ; ee 9a7

Sarah : okay yalla ta3ali 3ndna hnak

Me: la baro7 el 9af , ma3a el salama

Sarah : bye ..

Sarah went back to nouf …

Sarah : shfeech entail

Nouf : shfeeni ?! enti t3rfeen ena ana abi m9l7tha , y3ni shno ele y’9rni ana lw ehya kalmt 9byan aw maklmt m7d ra7 yt’9rr ela ehya

Sarah  :bs ‘3ala6 ena u call her ‘3bya

Nouf : m3laih ana knt m39ba , etha radait el bait bat9l lha o bara’9eeha

Sarah : okay

Nouf : yalla baroo7 el 9af

Sarah : okay , bye

-END OF CHAPTER 22-

CHAPTER 21

Chapter 21

Ahmed : prove it

Me : mb shr6 y3ni , ena etha I added him y3ni abi a8hrk

Ahmed : la shar6

Me : la a7md , mb shr6 , ent shmswe li 3shan a8hrk ?

Ahmed : walla ma3rf , bs ana ga3d an8hr

Me : sorry a7md , mb 89dii a8hrk , bs y3ni madri a7s hal 9bai is the right one for me , o I cant wait until I graduate …

Ahmed : I will not force you to do something that you don’t want to do

Me : thank you

Ahmed : yalla 5alna nro7

Me : ana 3azmtk la

Ahmed : so not in mood for it

Me : okay 3ala ra7tk

(6l3na min el mall o dshaina el sayara , btw its their driver , ahmed didn’t get his license yet )

Me : a7md

Ahmed : ……

Me : ahmed ent z3lan mni ?

Ahmed : I will tell you something , el 7chi hai ele kla tgoleenh 3n el 9bai , o hes the best for you , its killing me from the inside , bs ma agool lch shai , an abs ayee wyach la2ana abi asa3dch la2ana I love you, walla ana magdr achoofch wya wa7d ‘3airi , you think that ahmed is the best for you , ill tell you something , I think that you are the best for me , t3rfen ena ana ga3d a7trg min da5l lama achoofch 7ta tfkreen ena you will add him , why him why not me , walla I love you , I love you , im not going to stop you from something that you really want to do , bs madri mariam , I wish that ana knt mkanh …..

Me : walla ma3rf shagool

Ahmed : uhhh

Me : its just , I don’t think that I have any feelings towards you , I love you as a cousin and a friend , you really support me a lot and that means a lot to me , u helped me in this , o I swear that ana mb ga3da aswee chthi 3shan a8hrk ahmed , o im sorry I think that I should not have told you about this 3shan its hurting you , bs you helped me a lot , o I will never forget it,  a7een I know that I have someone that can always help me b3d wgftk hathi ma3ay , 7ta my best friends sarah o nouf masww chthi , from the bottom of my heart thank you ahmed for everything

Ahmed : aww , your welcome

Me : I took my decision , and im going to add him

Ahmed : I expected that , bs sm3ai etha ‘3l6 3alaich aw sawa lach shai gole lii o ana bawareech feeh

I smiled

Me :inshallah

Ahmed : eee 97 when is your birthday

Me : in 3 weeks inshallah 

Ahmed : ra7 tsween 7fla ?

Me : probably yes

Ahmed : am I invited

Me : ofcourse ya3ni , ent awl wa7d  I will invite a9ln

Ahmed : haha , thank you

Me : mta bta5th el license ?

Ahmed : jreeb inshallah , a7een ga3d aro77 tadreeb , bagi shwai inshallah

Me : haaa 3aad mawa9eek

Ahmed : hahahah , afaaa 3alaich a9ln , awal w7dah ba6l3haa entail

Me : e7777mmmm

Ahmed : sktai sktai bas

(back to grandmas )

Mariam (e5t ahmed ): 5altiii

Mom : halla mariam

Mariam : mariam bntch fee el bait ?

Mom : la 7bebte 6al3h

Mariam : wyaa min ?

Mom ;rfejt’ha

Mariam : la7een mardt el bait , la2ana abi a7acheeha bmw’9oo3

Mom : walla madri , ana bat9l lha a7een o bagolch

Mariam : Okay

…………………..

(back to ahmed and I )

I got a phonecall …

Ahmed : min ?

Me : my mom

…..

Me: aloo

Mom : halla mama , rj3tee el bait

Me : ana fe el 6reej mama , tbeen shai ?

Mom : la bs etha radaite el bait 5brini , la2ana mariam tbi t7acheech fe mw’9o3 tgool

Me : haa , ay mw’9oo3

Mom : walla ma3rf yumma , tyeen 3ndnaa , goli 7g rfeejtch tw9lch hnii

Me : okay mama inshallah

Me : ahmed mama tbene aro7 hnak , ent mabtyee ?

Ahmed : laa baroo7 el bait

Me : okay , mama galat le ena e5tk tbi t7achene b mw’9oo3

Ahmed : maw’9oo3 shnww

Me : ma3rf walla

Ahmed : shtabe thiii

Me : ma3rff

Ahmed : etha galat lch shai la t76een b5a6rch okay

Me : okay

…………………

W9lt 3ndhm , awl ma nzlt 6rsht request 7g ahmed …

I think that we are going to be the cutest couple ever

Dashait bait ydtii , salamt 3la el kl , mariam ashrt lii ena ta3ale fe el 7jra , so r7t lha

Mariam : wa 2a5eern sharafteee

Me : sh89dch ?

Mariam : traa ana mb ‘3bya o a3rf ench 6l3te way ahmed

Me : ente she59ch a9ln, 6al3a m3ah mb 6al3h m3ah mb sh’3lch thii

Mariam : sh’3le o n9 b3d , ana e5th

Me : o el m6loob y3ni , e5t’h shasawe lch y3ni , a9fg lch

Mariam : bagool lch shai o 76eeh fe balch 3dl , ahmed mb lach , e7na bnzwjh bnt rfejt omi

Me : okay shasawi y3ni , ana glt ena a7md li

(when I heard that, I got a really werid feeling , and ahmed dayman ygool le ena ohwa byt8dm le , laish egool li chthi dam m566en lh kl shai min gbl )

Mariam  :ee agool lch , 3shan t76en fe balch y3ni

Me : okay

(o 6l3t min el 7jra )

(I wass really happy that I added ahmed , bs hathi 5rbt mazaji )

-END OF CHAPTER 21-

CHAPTER 20

Chapter 20

Now back to me and ahmed …

I got a text from farah.

Farah : Mariam entay wyaa ahmed ?

I replied : yes

Farah replied : 7asbw , tra mariam twha s2lt 3nch , o shaka ena ente 6al3a wyaa ahmed

I replied : ohoo shfeeha thii , okay thanks 7abebti ena glti lna

Farah  :your welcome :*

I told ahmed ena mariam s2lt 3na, he told me 5alha twali

I think that ahmed is a little bit pissed off , a little bit

Me : a7medoo

Ahmed : haa

Me : t3rf etha b3dain r7na 7achaina thak el a7md , ana 3azmtk 3ala ice-cream

Ahmed : shno el mnasaba ?

Me : mafi mnasaba , bs chthi

Ahmed : la 9j

Me :el mnasaba ehya ena ana z3ltk minsa3a , o ana mar’9a 3ala ro7i ena az3lk , fa hai mthl hadeya lltsam7 , 3rft ?

Ahmed : eee ee lltasam7

(Ahmed’s phone rang)

Ahmed : hathi mariam e5ti

Me : rd 3alaiha

……

(ahmed 7a6ah speaker)

Ahmed: aloo

Mariam : halla

Ahmed : halla mariam , kntii tabeen shai ?

Mariam : tra bala hal 7arakat , ana adri enk wyaa mariam , o allah yastr shga3deen tswoon a7een

Ahmed : sh89dch ?

Mariam : esm3 ahmed , ana mb 5abla , o ashkra ent o mariam 6al3een wyaa ba3a’9 o latswii ro7k ahbl o mat3rf , ana bagool lk shai o 76h fe balk , e7na hal 3la8at matmshe 3ndna , e7na mb ga3deen fe America , e7na ga3deen fee el Bahrain , o shai thani 76 fee balk ena hai mariam ga3da tchtb 3alaik o ehya mara7 ttzwj wa7d min el 3ayla

Ahmed : ……………………..

Mariam: an abs ga3da agool lk chthi 3shan m9l7tk la akthr wla a8l, mabi tt3lg feha o ehya ba3dain thdk

Ahmed : 5ala9te el 7chi ele 3ndch

Mariam : ee 5l9th

Ahmed : okay ma3a el salama

Mariam ; BYE

…………………………

Honestly I was shocked mn ele galth mariam shfeeha thi

Ahmed kan sakt 6ool el 6reej

O honestly ele galth mariam was right , I never thought of marrying one of my cousins , bs u never know

Ahmed: yalla w9lna

Me : okay

So dashaina city centre o ahmed texted the other a7med

Ahmed : ta3al costa

The other Ahmed : okay

So ahmed and I r7na costa & ahmed yaa lna 3gb 5 minutes

Ahmed : halla walla

My cousin : halla beek

Me : ahlain

Ahmed : shloonkm ?

My cousin: ana b5air

Ahmed : mariam shloonch ?

Me : ana tamam

Ahmed : doom inshallah

My cousin : tf’9l

Ahmed : mashkoor

My cousin :ent glt lna ena tabi tt7acha fe hl mw’9oo3 akthr , shno 89dk y3ni ?

Ahmed : mariam walla ana afkr feech 6ool el wgt , fakree feha mara thanya , walla ana 7abaitch awl machftch , fakree feha ba3ad , tra ana mb ga3d al3b 3alaich , lo al3b 3alaich ma yait lch lain hni , walla ana 7abaitch

Me : ……………………..

My cousin : walla shagool lak , hal shay byad mariam , el 8rar fe yadha

Ahmed : mariam bs 3a6ini fr9a w7da , bs fr9a w7dah

My point of view :

I really don’t know what to do , wallah the feelings that I had locked up for a while , bursted up again , uhh ma3arf shasawi , should I give him a chance, maybe y7bni 9j , walla ma3rf shasawi , uugggh )

Ahmed : ha mariam shgltai ?

Me : walla ma3rf

My cousin : bt36eenh fr9a ?

Me : ma3arf , ymkn

Ahmed : 9jjjj walla

Me : ma3rf ma3rf

My cousin : a7een ee aw laa

Me ; abiii afkr b3d , ahmed 36ni your pain , etha 7sait ene ana ra’9ya ill add you  on bbm

Ahmed ; walla 5alaitene astans , yalla ana bahdkm, marioom fkree feeha 3dl

Me : okay ahmed , I will

(ahmed left )

Ahmed : entttiiiii min 9jjch

Me : shnww

Ahmed : 97 e7na yayeen hnii 3shan we end this

Me : ma3arf ahmed

Ahmed : shfeech mariam , shno ele t’3yr y3ni , enti bs tbeen t8hrini

Me : shd3waa ahmed abi a8hrk

Ahmed : walla ga3da t8hereni

Me : ana ya3nii la7een maglt 7g el 9baai ena 5ala9 ana abii a’9eefk , glt lh bafakr

Ahmed : bs ybayn tra ente ashkra ga3da t7beenh

Me : min gal lk ?

Ahmed : prove it laa , etha 9j u wont add him

Me : ………….

-END OF CHAPTER 20 -

CHAPTER 19

Chapter 19

So ahmed re-added him and he accepted ….

A part inside of me was happy to see ahmed again, uggh

So I went back home and thanked ahmed my cousin for everything he did , he really helped me a lot.

My birth-day is in 3 weeks, im thinking of throwing a party , for my friends and family…

I had dinner and I went to sleep, the next day I woke up , it was the weekend , and im going to talk to ahmed today , im kind of nervous , a9ln there is nothing to talk about , bs madri its better to talk to him , o I think ena ahmed my cousin coming with me is better than my brother na9er coming , ahmed is like a friend of mine , bs na9er ra7 y39b etha darah o y3fs el dnya.

I told my mom ena I cant come to grandmas today…

Me : mama , magdr aye bait yadte el yoom

Mom : laaaish matgdreen tyeen ?

Me : la2ana ba6l3 , 3nde shai lazm asweeh , o magdr a2jlh , pleeaassseee mama lazm aroo7

Mom : min bewadeech ?

Me : la t7ateen beyone 3gb shwai

Mom : okay e7na lazm nro7 a7een , lain bt6l3een gflee el bab warach , 3ndch el mfta7 la

Me : ee mama 3nddi

Mom : okay , yalla 7abebte ma3a el salama , o 7achene awal mat6l3een min el bait

Me : okay mama , bye

So klhm ra7aw , o mafi a7d fe el bait , I hate to be home alone , r7t abarz ro7ii ….

I heard a voice from downstairs …

Someone entering the house , I got really sccaaarrreedd , ana bro7i 5awafa

Omg ma3arf shasawwwiii , my phone Is downstairs

R7t 7jrat na9er o5ooi , kan 3nddhh 3a9a I took it , twakalt 3ala allah , o r7t downstairs

Kan fee wa77ddd fe el 9alaaah , wagf 9oob el dreesha o ga3d y6al3 el 7dee8a

I really don’t know what to to , rk’9t o r7t 9oob el dreesha o 6agaith bl 3a9a 3ala rasah

Then eftr el 9bai….

It was ahmed my cousin -.-

Wahahahahhahahaahahhahaha , tamait a’97k 3alaih , he was in pain , la2ana 6agaith b2agwa ma 3nddi

He was looking at me

Ahmed : laaish 6agaitene

Me : shdarani ma3arft enaa ent

Ahmed : baaal , t3rfeen ena y3wr , 7asha mb yad thii

Me : ok ahmed -.- , a9ln shlon dashait el bait

Ahmed : ana knt yay 9oob baitkm 3shan a5th’ch , chft ahlch 6l3w o nsw y9koon el bab , o hai el bab kan maftoo7 fa dashait

Me : ee okay

Ahmed: y3ni entai kl ma a7d eye baitkm o mat3rfeenh t6geenh b3a9a

Me : wahahhaha , laaa bs ena ma3rft min fa ybt el 3a9a wyay e7tya6

Ahmed : enti la7een mabrztee ro7ch

Me : laa a7een baro7

Ahmed : okay

Me : umbaaaaih , ahmed you are bleeding

Ahmed : 7llffaaay

Me : walla , bs mb wayed shwai , dgeega en6r baroo7 ayeeb first aid kit , aw tabi tro7 el mstshfa

Ahmed : madri , ta3alee chofee rasi , chofii el jr7 shkbr

Me : okay

Ahmed : 79lteeh ?

Me : la la7een

Ahmed : 7asha tdwreen kanz entail

Me : la2ana maybayn shai , sh3rk chnah shyara

Ahmed : affaa ya mariam afaa , ana sh3ri shyara

Me : shfeeha el shyara , sh7lwha

Ahmed : y3nii ana 7lww ?

Me : roo7 ethlf , aka 79lth , baroo7 ayeeb first aid kit o barj3 , bs lazm tn’6fh bshwai mai , o ‘3sl sh3rk shwai

Ahmed : tooobaaa mara thanya mabdsh baitkm

Me : wahahhaha , eee 3ashan t3rf mat5r3ni , dgeega baroo7 o barj3 , t3rf shnw ta3al wyay

(and we went to the kitchen , la2ana my mom 7a6ah el kit there )

Ahmed : tn’6feenh lee ?

Me : yeah sure

(ahmed 76 rasah 3la el 6awlah ,  it was a small cut , n’6fth o I finished , a7med kan ga3d fee el m6b5 o ana r7t abadl )

After 10 minutes

Ahmed : hal kthr wgt tbadleen ??

Me : ee b3d shasawi , lazm atksh5

Ahmed : ttksh5ain 7g min ?

Me : 97 el yoom bachoof 7abeeb el glb

(it was a joke , but ahmed got upset )

Me : weeee ahmed , at’3shmr wyak shfeek

Ahmed : mafini shai , yalla 5anroo7 7g 7beeb el glb

Me : z33lt ?

Ahmed : laa maz3lt , yalla 5alna nroo7

(it was so obvious that ahmed kan z3lan mni , it was a really bad joke)

6l3na min el bait , gafalt el bab , o dashaina el sayara

Me : a7maad

Ahmed : haa

Me : shfeek

Ahmed : mafini shai

Me : la tchthb 3alai , tra ybayn enk z3laan , tra knt at’3shmr wyak walla

Ahmed: okay

Me : e7llf lii enk mb z3laan

Ahmed : walla , a9ln ana magdr az3l mnch

Me ; eee adri adri

At my grandmas house….

(my grandpa , and grandma are dead , bs 3mi 3li 3aysh fee bait yadte , fa kl ym3a nroo7 hnak )

3mi 3li: yalla tf’9lww 3ala el sfraa

Mariam ( e5t ahmed ): 5alttii mariam bntch mabtyee ?

My mom : la 7bebte , mariam msh’3oola el yoom , o magdrt tyii , o5ooch waynh ?

Mariam : magdr eye , ygool msh’3ool

Mariam’s point of view :

Aaaahhhh yal 3yayra 6al3eeen wyaa ba3a’9 , ana baraweekm

-END OF CHAPTER 19-

CHAPTER 18

Chapter 18

Im glad that ahmed helped me , o he helped me a lot , what he told me made me think again whether to add him or not …

So probably ill wait for a week ….

So I kept on thinking all night , then my cousin ahmed came up to my mind …

I think that it was wrong that  I told him , he really helped me , and I know that he wants whats best for me, but the thing is that  he loves me and he has feelings towards me made it wrong for me to tell him about this thing which will probably break his heart … , I really don’t know , bs I think what I did was wrong o truly wrong b3d …

I told mohammed that I don’t talk to guys ,  and I don’t go in relationships with them , as soon as I go in a relationship  with that dude ahmed , what I told him will change to a lie …

Ma3arf shasawi , ara’9i min ana …

Etha mabi akoon in a relationship with ahmed , y3ni batm chthi , o b3dain etha mohammed o ahmed t8dmw li (etha what they told me was true about ena byt8dmon le ) shasawi , who will I pick , uuggghhhh…

Should I follow my heart or follow my brain ,,,

My brain tells me to forget about ahmed , but my heart tells me to just add him right now …

And after an hour of thinking , I went to sleep…

After a week ….

So I still didn’t add ahmed , and I think that I shouldn’t add him because its wrong to , you just have to follow your brain sometimes instead of following your heart …

But I have to talk to ahmed about this thing , and I want to tell him ena I wont add him o this thing wont work …

So I called ahmed my cousin first o knt abi agolh ena he adds ahmed o ygool lh enah mariam tabi t7acheek o we should meet somewhere…

So I called …

Me : hello ahmed, shloonk ?

Ahmed : ahlaain , ana b5air el 7mdallah , enti shlonch ?

Me : ana zainaa , ahmed abeek tswii lii shai

Ahmed : shnw ?

Me : t3rf the other ahmed la , I thought about it and ….

Ahmed : and what ?

Me : I wont add him

Ahmed : el 7mdalllah , 3rfft ena you wooonnt , I know yoouuu 3ddl , o you weren’t raised like this , wallah im so happy that you wont add him , 5ft ena u add him 3gb t6eren min yaddii , I don’t want to lose you

Me : awwww

Ahmed : shno el shai ele knte tabene asaweeh lach ?

Me  : ee 9aa77 , ba36eek pin ahmed o talk to him o gool lah ena mariam tabi t7acheek o ena we should meet somewhere

Ahmed : inshallah , min 3yooni

Me : ee shai thani , abeek tyii wyay when I want to go to meet him

Ahmed : ofcourse y3ni maba5aleech bro7ch , 3a6ini his pin

Me : 27******

Ahmed : basawe lh request a7een o ba5brch shbe9er

Me : okay ahmed , thank yooouu

Ahmed : yoouur welcome

Me : yalla byee

Ahmed : byyee

Ahmed is a really nice guy I was too blind to see that before , o I thought that he was bossy o madri shnw , I remember that days that I used to have a crush on him hahahahah , memories wallah , he was like my prince charming =)) , but everything  changed now

But he really helps me a lot ..

Suddenly ahmed pinged me ..

He told me ena sawah lah request o that ahmed declined ..

Ohoo what should I do now ..

Ahmed told me that we are going to starbucks tomorrow to talk to him …

Ugh… Im so not ready for seeing him again , not tomorrow atleast

He told me that hes coming to pick me up afterschool , bs this time farah is not coming ,.

Ahmed told me that I have to go with him o may9eer yroo7 bro7h .. so I agreed to go with him.

He called my mom o he told her ena yabene a6l3 wyah , since hes my cousin my mom told me that its okay to go with him , cuz she trusts him .

The next day we went to starbucks I ordered a muffin and a coffee because I was hungry

I saw ahmed and he waved at me and he brought my order

Ahmed : ummm I sent you a letter did you read it

Me ; yes I did

Ahmed ; so why didn’t you add me ?

Me ; I think that its wrong

Ahmed came closer to me ; whats wrong in it ? love is wrong ( and he became mad) I love you please understand that

Me ; go away before my cousin comes

Ahmed ; I love you so please add me please

Me : GO AWAY

Ahmed : ok but think again honey , should we atleast talk about this again?

Me: okay , meet me at city centre tomorrow , my cousin will tell you where exactly, he added you yesterday bs you declined , he will re-add

Ahmed: okay

Me : bye

Ahmed : bye mariam

So ahmed my cousin came towards me

Ahmed ( cousin ) ; sorry for being late I was finding a place to park

Me ; its okay

Ahmed; so should we go and talk to him

Me ; yeah , we will tomorrow , just re-add him , hes going to come to city centre

Ahmed : okay

-END OF CHAPTER 18-