CHAPTER 18

Chapter 18

Im glad that ahmed helped me , o he helped me a lot , what he told me made me think again whether to add him or not …

So probably ill wait for a week ….

So I kept on thinking all night , then my cousin ahmed came up to my mind …

I think that it was wrong that  I told him , he really helped me , and I know that he wants whats best for me, but the thing is that  he loves me and he has feelings towards me made it wrong for me to tell him about this thing which will probably break his heart … , I really don’t know , bs I think what I did was wrong o truly wrong b3d …

I told mohammed that I don’t talk to guys ,  and I don’t go in relationships with them , as soon as I go in a relationship  with that dude ahmed , what I told him will change to a lie …

Ma3arf shasawi , ara’9i min ana …

Etha mabi akoon in a relationship with ahmed , y3ni batm chthi , o b3dain etha mohammed o ahmed t8dmw li (etha what they told me was true about ena byt8dmon le ) shasawi , who will I pick , uuggghhhh…

Should I follow my heart or follow my brain ,,,

My brain tells me to forget about ahmed , but my heart tells me to just add him right now …

And after an hour of thinking , I went to sleep…

After a week ….

So I still didn’t add ahmed , and I think that I shouldn’t add him because its wrong to , you just have to follow your brain sometimes instead of following your heart …

But I have to talk to ahmed about this thing , and I want to tell him ena I wont add him o this thing wont work …

So I called ahmed my cousin first o knt abi agolh ena he adds ahmed o ygool lh enah mariam tabi t7acheek o we should meet somewhere…

So I called …

Me : hello ahmed, shloonk ?

Ahmed : ahlaain , ana b5air el 7mdallah , enti shlonch ?

Me : ana zainaa , ahmed abeek tswii lii shai

Ahmed : shnw ?

Me : t3rf the other ahmed la , I thought about it and ….

Ahmed : and what ?

Me : I wont add him

Ahmed : el 7mdalllah , 3rfft ena you wooonnt , I know yoouuu 3ddl , o you weren’t raised like this , wallah im so happy that you wont add him , 5ft ena u add him 3gb t6eren min yaddii , I don’t want to lose you

Me : awwww

Ahmed : shno el shai ele knte tabene asaweeh lach ?

Me  : ee 9aa77 , ba36eek pin ahmed o talk to him o gool lah ena mariam tabi t7acheek o ena we should meet somewhere

Ahmed : inshallah , min 3yooni

Me : ee shai thani , abeek tyii wyay when I want to go to meet him

Ahmed : ofcourse y3ni maba5aleech bro7ch , 3a6ini his pin

Me : 27******

Ahmed : basawe lh request a7een o ba5brch shbe9er

Me : okay ahmed , thank yooouu

Ahmed : yoouur welcome

Me : yalla byee

Ahmed : byyee

Ahmed is a really nice guy I was too blind to see that before , o I thought that he was bossy o madri shnw , I remember that days that I used to have a crush on him hahahahah , memories wallah , he was like my prince charming =)) , but everything  changed now

But he really helps me a lot ..

Suddenly ahmed pinged me ..

He told me ena sawah lah request o that ahmed declined ..

Ohoo what should I do now ..

Ahmed told me that we are going to starbucks tomorrow to talk to him …

Ugh… Im so not ready for seeing him again , not tomorrow atleast

He told me that hes coming to pick me up afterschool , bs this time farah is not coming ,.

Ahmed told me that I have to go with him o may9eer yroo7 bro7h .. so I agreed to go with him.

He called my mom o he told her ena yabene a6l3 wyah , since hes my cousin my mom told me that its okay to go with him , cuz she trusts him .

The next day we went to starbucks I ordered a muffin and a coffee because I was hungry

I saw ahmed and he waved at me and he brought my order

Ahmed : ummm I sent you a letter did you read it

Me ; yes I did

Ahmed ; so why didn’t you add me ?

Me ; I think that its wrong

Ahmed came closer to me ; whats wrong in it ? love is wrong ( and he became mad) I love you please understand that

Me ; go away before my cousin comes

Ahmed ; I love you so please add me please

Me : GO AWAY

Ahmed : ok but think again honey , should we atleast talk about this again?

Me: okay , meet me at city centre tomorrow , my cousin will tell you where exactly, he added you yesterday bs you declined , he will re-add

Ahmed: okay

Me : bye

Ahmed : bye mariam

So ahmed my cousin came towards me

Ahmed ( cousin ) ; sorry for being late I was finding a place to park

Me ; its okay

Ahmed; so should we go and talk to him

Me ; yeah , we will tomorrow , just re-add him , hes going to come to city centre

Ahmed : okay

-END OF CHAPTER 18-